sigh
a lot of things are happening lately again
its the same problems again
im trying to ignore it but apparently the problem is getting bigger and bigger
im just forced to deal with it
shit im really starting to think that im such a bitch
i dunno whether its pms or what
but its like i get pissed off at alot of insignificant stuff
i know its unimportant and yet i get so upset
i dont even understand why
maybe its just a phase im going through
but fuck why is this phase lasting so long.
im seriously sick of what im going through
and i know im like pissing everyone else off
but its not as if i can help it
and its not my choice that i want to make you unhappy
and i must say im not someone who can say things out like that
i must admit that im not as straightforward as other people
maybe because im very sensitive to how other people think about me
yes. im self conscious. i admit. im self conscious in every single way.
but can i help it? no.
and i really hate people who like make statements before they know whats going on
hello. you're not living my life.
and i dont have to tell you every single thing that i do.
so if you want to know
sorry. all i can say is. my life is not as simple as you think.
and its not that im 15 then i dont think about all these stuff.
in case you dont realise. i do. alot in fact.
im not as fucking childish as you think i am.
i really hope things can clear up.
and im not trying to pinpoint anyone by saying all these stuff in my post.
its just that.. i've been thinking about this for too long.
welly~ happy belated birthday!
and yijie happy birthday!
i swear i'll give you guys bday presents.
when im not so broke. heh. =x
derrick is so cute! ^^
like small boyboy like that.
i'm so tired of all these things.
i really need a break.
today was a totally extremely sucky day
first days of school are ALWAYS so awful
the heat this morning was killing me!
i was using my report book to fan myself
because i had nothing else to use you see >.<
so my friend was like laughing at me. BAHHHHHHHHH
sigh. back to the old bitchy me
darn it. i feel so bad and so shiok at the same time.
AIYA damn it.
but bitching really damn damn refreshing to the soul ah.
MY soul. AHAHA
anyway. school still sucks. apart from the friends and everything.
i still see ONE BIG alphabet blocking my way to happiness and freedom.
and i feel like saying
'HI O! GO AND DIE AH YOU!' and give it a big big kick till it flies out of the universe.
YES. then i'll be the happiest girl on earth.
xiaxue is on teevee! hmm. realised she's aint that pretty after all. and hell she puts on freaking lot of make up kay. well. those people are right. she needs ALOT of make up and great photoshop skills to make herself look pretty. hah.
and i am SO gonna watch initial d. after all. who wouldnt? damn. so many cute guys. jay chou. edison chan. shawn yue. bawls. i still have to wait till the 23rd. hmm. edison chan is freaking cute. just look at him. AWWWW my baby. he is my new love.
^^
pending to juu's question.
these are the things i realised
#number one_
they SMOKE
yes im the ulu one who dint know that before hand ><
#number two_
niunai likes CHAO AH LIANS
ahaha. no offence ah. thats a personal opinion. ^^ just a personal opinion. dont take it to heart
seriously im going to turn into this 80kg fat woman when school reopens
that is if i continue to pig out like now
bahs. i ate biscuits this morning. then i ate half a pack of hersheys.
then i ate maggi-curly-meeeee. then after that ate an apple. and a drumstick. after that finished the rest of the hersheys. and another pack of biscuits.
BOY. am i a pig or am i a pig?
okay. im ready to blog about my chasing trip. well get ready for a really long post. dont want to read? SHOO. off you go.
10/6
i met up with yijie in the morning at causeway point and we ate macs. hoho. [AND YIJIE YOU POOT LAH. im still grossed out over what you did to the egg.] anyway. we took a bus and went down to the airport. it was like a 1hr bus ride. my butt was hurting like hell. well FINALLY when we reached we were walking around and finally found zhiying and co. so welly still did arrive early. nevermind that minor hiccup in the morning. though it almost scared me to death. but in the end we still dint managed to carry out our plan. PS: i am so sorry zhiying! wo dui bu qi ni!! hmm. then when energy arrived it was the usual scream and run situation. and hmm. after that they went to the hotel. OH. a note here. if you ever want to stay in a hotel, NEVER EVER stay in good wood park. shit the guards. shit the doorman. HARHARHAR. anyway. lemme continue my story. after that juu went to polyclinic and suddenly got the news that energy was going for some press conference. so we chionged there. and waited in the M hotel lobby. after that in the maxi was the greatest part of this whole chasing trip i must say. MISTER ZHANG SHUWEI was waving and posing into our camera for around one minutes plusplusplus. he's so charming! and so sweet. hoho. and then they went to some cafe and was having their dinner. we just walked behind them across the street la. AHAHAHA. all the cars stopped for us. after that they took some photos and niunai is freaking retarded and YES niunai has a new nickname mr. ye-chiko-niunai. -.- SERIOUSLY what was he doing with that model la. and he lifted her skirt. ^%&^$^$#%#@$#%. BLARHS. then we went to the autograph session. queued there. we were at the last row. and thanks to adelia's friends, we managed to get our albums signed. and it was the happiest auto session for me. i talked to niunai and he was quite nice to me lah. [AND YOU PEOPLE OUT THERE. stop saying you hate niunai ah. i throw parang ah] what a drastic change for me la. kunda to niunai. HMM. i wont ever dare to talk to kunda anyway. hurhur. then after the autograph session we went to ngee ann city and watched them perform. shuwei forgot the lyrics of dawyt. hmm. but nonetheless, hes still cute. ^^ after that they bought bak kut teh and went back to hotel. the funniest thing was. when everyone turned into the hotel, we went home instead. hahaha. so uncle thomas sent us home. and i stayed at welly the freaking rich girl's house which totally looks like a hotel room. and who the hell has like 4 apartments in one building. HER. -.- we dint sleep until like 3.30. and pooh. that was a really great day.
11/6
juu and i woke up at around 9 plus. after much struggling, we managed to get myself out of bed and me, to stop fussing about my hair. of course it was after me bathing and washing my hair. AHAHA. anyway. we went to gleaneagles to get some medicine and went to hotel to check in. that receptionist was kinda nice. but that hint was far too obvious. hurhur. anyway. we went up to the room and while we were in the room. deon called juu and they were screaming and screaming. deon ah. fancy screaming for niunai to throw kunda down. ahaha. we missed out that part but we saw the dv. hahaha. funny. after that. they went for the afternoon tea session. oh. i managed to help zhiying pass her letter to ahdi but AHHHHH felt so mean. because shuwei was right in front of me. and ahdi was on the other side so when i stretched out my hand shuwei was staring at me giving ahdi the letter cause my hand was blocking him and he couldnt walk. >< SORRY SHUWEI and SORRY YIJIE. if not you will keep scolding me ah. ahaha. after that we went to newton hawker centre. and i bought my carrot cake. hmmm. niunai was really black faced and kunda also. ahdi's back was hurting again i think. poor ahdi. ): im gonna miss him really alot. after that it was the psc night. we almost went downstairs but still sat in the gallery anyway. we were the first row. and niunai was MAD. hes seriously mad lah. dont know what was wrong with him. all that hand actions and stuff. he's either freaking fake or he's freaking siao. i rather believe that he's the second one. after that we went to the 933 concert thing. dint see much. was watching the reverted image on the screen. -.- the other side too crowded. so yeah. after that we chased and they went back to hotel. welly and me walked into the hotel HAHAHAHA so shiok and everyone stared on. =x oops. sorry lah. too mean. ehehe. anyway. it was a really long night. we ate cup noodles and walked around. and i slept at 4.30. yes. bah. sorry for snoring. ahaha.
12/6
we checked out at 10 plus and sat in the lobby till 11 plus when they came out. the guard tried to chase us out again but naninanipoopoo we stayed in the hotel. AHARHAR. they couldnt do anything to us. so after that wanted to pass letter to niunai but his face was BLACK. like totally BLACK. was so freaked out so i stoned there. then dint know what to do. so the guard tried to stop me. and i turned to yijie and was like howhowhow. then she AIYAH. pass to shuwei. so i passed ahdi and niunai's letter to shuwei. >< AH. he's so nice la. then on the way there niunai was this mad guy again. keep turning over. he made a face. then keep waving and smiled. mad lah. but only 2 maxis chased. so it was rather shiok. after that went to the handshake session to queue. hmm. went onstage. but at that time my mood was seriously affected. by what i dont know. but i just know that at that moment i just want to get it over and done with. so i just blackface and go up. then i saw shuwei. and felt so bad so i was like telling him thank you after he signed. then kunda was like blurblur staring. AHAHA. cute lah cute lah. so after that was ahdi. he looked really tired so i told him to jiayou. he was in a good mood anyway. (: he smiled at me and said thankyou. rare man. and for niunai i just said niunai jiayou and went off. BARFS. niunai chikopek. ahahaha. then after that went home with juu. the two of us were super lethargic and hmmm. i was so tired when i reached home i just went to sleep till this morning. and i woke up at 11. ahahaha. okayokay. tata. guess thats all for you guys.
hope i didnt bore you all out. i guess i still love energy. but made two discoveries. hmm.
im at wellys house
and its 1.46 now. HURHURHUR.
yay. i've just had a really great day
full of energy
AH. too much. till i cant sleep
oh damn it. im grinning at the computer again.
anyway
im just really happy
but lazy to blog abt the chasing trip
will talk about it another day
just realised something
i dont act very fan-nish
i mean apart from the chasing and all that
i dont type like this
AhAhAhA
iiM a sUpEr BiMb0Tic bIimbo0
-.- be thankful for that
aha. yes. tell me you love me.
my mother was really freaking retarded yesterday
we were eating halfway
then i was telling her about this bhb person
then you know
BUEH HIAO BAI [bai=ugly]
so i was like this person
CHAO JI BUEH HIAO BAI
then she heard as
CHAO JI BAI
-.- which is um
you know what it means
so she was laughing like mad for the whole day
and in the morning
she suddenly came up to me and said
I LOVE NUMBER FIVE!!
[five as in the digit if you're wondering]
so she wrote this on my writing pad
so papa saw and he came over and wrote this
I HAVE WEIRD PARENTS!!
my internet connection was screwed
i couldnt access the net for the whole freaking day
was so freaking pissed off
but nevermind
at least that took away some distractions
and i was happily doing my work
OH YAH
my parents are so amusing
AHAHAHAHAHAHA
i'll cite you the example tmr
BAWLS. my blog entries are SO meaningless
im just ranting on and on
and i miss everyone. ):
my donkeys
my donkey's BIBI -.-
my baobaos
huiyi bawls again at the computer screen
have been slacking around a lot lately.
and im still thinking.
SHOULD I GET THE AIRTIC?
but 72 bucks -.- isnt that abit not worth it
THINK THINK THINK
that can worth TWO nights of hotel staying
it'd be so nice if welly dear can change her flight back and wait for energy!
I TOLD YOU i'll talk to you on the phone for 3 whole hrs.
and i'll pay. I SWEAR! really!
sorry guys. if my blog is kinda flooded with by energy stuffies lately.
thats because urm HURHUR they are coming!
and i cant wait to see them.
dont worry. after the 12th of june energy will officially disappear from my blog entries till the next time they come. HOHOHO.
i feel like santa claus. -.-
and why are there so many childish insensible nosey irritating mad people out there?!?!
sometimes the world is really damned fucked up.
ahhhh. maybe they think of me as one too. i shall learn from stelly and take it in my stride. HURHURHUR
i got an important announcement to make!
I'VE FINALLY GOTTEN MY ENERGY CONCERT TICKETS!!!
oh yes. and that includes permission too! and you know im grinning at the computer like an idiot. ANYWAYS. energy's new album is a must buy. alot of songs are tear jerkers. >< BAWLS. i was listening and singing and crying.
i dont want ahdi to leave! ):
i must be BRAVE
huiyi you can do it
JIAYOU JIAYOU JIAYOU!
oh i almost forgot
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welcome back juu pok!
i missed you!
as much as i dont want to admit it
i think its really over for them already
sigh and the digits are still as irritating as everr.
lalala
all the childish people should just go and die
STOP GLOATING
damn you